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Married to a Pedophile: Every Human Soul is Precious!

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Because this blog is growing and being shared by thousands, I am hearing more and more from adults who were sexually abused when they were children.  I must tell you that every time I hear another story, my heart bleeds just a bit more.  I had no idea that so many children have suffered silently in this horrifying pain!

It is always so wonderful when I hear of victims of abuse who have come through this dark, painful tunnel of despair and are now survivors.  They’ve made it!  Most of them will say, “I’ve found a Savior.  My God delivered me from the pain that was part of my life all of my childhood. I no longer feel the chains of shame.  I no longer struggle with the daily fear.  I no longer am filled with hatred and rage.  I am free.”

But, for many, I hear the heart wrenching words, “I want to die. I am physically impaired because of the abuse.  I feel unloveable.  I feel ashamed.  And, I don’t know how I can go on. Nobody could every love somebody like me!”    Continue reading →

Married to a Pedophile: The Unrelenting Search for a Live-In Nanny Job!

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We should learn to follow our gut instincts.  When something seems “off” or just doesn’t feel right, there is probably something wrong.  When something seems so totally “odd” that you being to lose sleep over it, then pay attention while you’re tossing and turning in bed at night.

Listen to what your gut feelings are telling you! 

I knew something was very “odd” and “unusual” when the man I was married to began searching for a job as a live-in male nanny — a “manny” as he affectionately called it.  I was a bit more than irritated at him.  He had 5 years of college education, several years of experience as a preacher and also as a substitute school teacher.  He sold insurance for almost thirty years.  And, now at age 59 his life passion was to be a live-in babysitter!  There was something wrong, but I sure couldn’t figure it out!     Continue reading →

Married to a Pedophile: The Worst Thanksgiving Ever!

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Thanksgiving was always among my top three most favorite of all holidays, but there is one Thanksgiving that will forever be a total nightmare — a disaster — and the one that will always stand out as the absolute worst.

It was always our family tradition to have a time of “giving thanks” prior to eating our meal.  We would go around the table and say the things we were most thankful for, and then we would end with a prayer.  This is a beautiful tradition, I think, and one that brings a family closer together and helps us all to appreciate one another more.

However, there is one Thanksgiving that was horrid, and that is putting it mildly.  As you know by now, our marriage was far from thriving.  In fact, it was pretty evident that our marriage was crumbling.  So, this was going to be a sad Thanksgiving, and    Continue reading →

Married to a Pedophile: “He Pried Me Open Thousands of Times”

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If you’re visiting this blog chances are you are interested in something to do with child abuse — the definition, how to get help, how to report if abuse is going on, and how to find healing.  You are probably here, too, because you’ve begun reading my story of what it was like to live with a man for almost 40 years as he carried out horrible acts of crimes against children as he lived a double life.  Preacher, husband, beloved father by day — child molester to some of the most horrendous crimes of child abuse by night!

I don’t know if it’s the changing of the seasons, or knowing the impending “biggie holidays” are just around the corner, but there has been a wave of thoughts hitting me day and night for the past few weeks — nagging thoughts always ending with the question, “Is prison the right place for pedophiles?”

My unwavering answer is “YES”!      Continue reading →

Married to a Pedophile: “It Will Never Happen to Us……” -Guest Blog

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Child molestation is something we think will never, ever happen in our family. We fool ourselves into thinking that this is something you read about in the newspaper or see on Dateline or on the evening news every now and then.

WRONG!  Pedophiles are living among us in every walk of life and they are thinking about YOUR child constantly, planning how to MOLEST your child, and they will not stop until their mission is carried out.  How do I know?  I heard it from the mouth of a pedophile — the man I was married to for almost forty years. In his words, “If I wasn’t in prison I’d still be doing what I did from my teen years — I’d be molesting children.”   Continue reading →