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Married to a Pedophile: “Where Have You Been?”

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“Where have you been?”  “What’s been going on?”  “Are you okay”  “Why haven’t you been writing?”  The questions have been pouring in and I’m finally slowing down enough to answer your questions.

I have been taking a break from the heavy stuff in life so that I could totally, completely, and wonderfully enjoy the marriages of two of my daughters.  Can you believe it?  Two marriages in less than four weeks!!!!  I cannot even begin to put into words how my heart felt as I watched my daughters — hearts so full of love and joy —  join hands and hearts forever with the men of their dreams.  My heart throbbed so hard that there were moments when I thought it would explode.  Our family has gone through so much sadness in the past three years that it was truly a God-given break away from the hard, heartbreaking stuff to see and feel and share so much joy!

If you are new to this blog, I would strongly urge you to begin reading here. It’s so important for you to understand why my joy is beyond measure right now!   Continue reading →

Married to a Pedophile: One Word that Changed My Life!

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If you are new to this blog then I strongly suggest you begin reading here so that you can understand the full impact of how the mind of a pedophile works.  One of the most important things to remember is that pedophiles live in a total fantasy world and their world is built on lies.  There are days when I sit and stare blankly for hours at a time shaking my head wondering how I fell for so many lies for all of those years when I was married to John.  I’d like to think that I’m fairly intelligent and I used to pride myself on being able to see through the lies and deceit of people.

No longer do I think I’m so smart.  In fact, just the opposite.  I was living with a man and was totally devoted to him while he was lying, cheating, and deceiving me every day of my life.  There are times when I cry for hours wondering if he ever truly loved me.  We had children together and I thought those children were products of our sincere love.  Now……I doubt every bit of that.  I now believe I served only one purpose.   I was selfishly and maliciously used by this man I loved with all of my heart.  I was used to  Continue reading →

Married to a Pedophile: More Trouble — Federal Indictment!

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When I got married, I thought I knew how my life would unfold.  Love.  Marriage.  Children.  Country home.  Gardening.  Sewing clothes.  Cooking lots of great food.  Church and at home bible studies.  Seeing kids through school then off to college.  Graduations.  Weddings.  Grandbabies.  And, finally full circle back to living with the love of my life, John, enjoying our golden years together for the remainder of our lives.

Sometimes life doesn’t work out as planned.  Mine sure didn’t!  If you’ve been reading this blog, you already  know the last part of my life has certainly been different — far, far from what my dream life was like! Even though I didn’t know at the time I was married to a practicing pedophile, there were problems in our marriage that were huge red flags.  If only I had known!  Please take a moment and start here to catch my story from the beginning.  I think it’s important for you to see how this all unfolded.         Continue reading →

Married to a Pedophile: Bars, Mice, and Women!

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This blog is about what it was like being married to a practicing pedophile for almost forty years — and not knowing it.  Look at the signs with me — the red flags — that were there all of those years waving at me begging me to look inside.  Get educated with me so that you can learn how to identify child predators before they stop grooming and close in on the child and molest.  If you’re new to this blog, please start here.

By now our house was filled with children, and I loved it!  I was so happy to be a mom that it was easy for me to get caught up in the wonderfulness of motherhood and push aside the lingering pain of so many years of odd happenings, hurtful experiences, and negligence that made up such a large part of our lives as husband and wife.  Sadly, as the years clicked on, I could sense the separation between us growing wider   Continue reading →

Married to a Pedophile: “I’m So Sorry. I Really Do Love You!”

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Every woman wants to be loved.  That is a fact.  I’m not talking about just the physical act of love, but women want “relationships.”  Women want to know that they are loved by one man and that he is hers exclusively. Women respond to the word love — even when it’s not spoken.  Sometimes just holding a woman’s hand is enough to make her feel genuinely loved.  Women are emotionally wired to crave love!

And, when we crave a love relationship, we are blinded to the truth.

And, as I look back over my married life, I was no different.  I craved love, too.    Continue reading →