Married to a Pedophile: Dottie Sandusky and I Have Lots to Talk About!

As I watched the interview of Dottie Sandusky for the fourth time, my anger began to diminish and I began feeling so sorry for her.  I listened to her every word.  I listened as she stumbled through tears to try so hard to convince Matt Lauer of her husband’s innocence.  She cried saying she was strong.  She said she never called those who came forward with their stories liars.  But she did.  She said she didn’t see anything wrong with Jerry showering with teenage boys, tickling them, and soaping them up.  But, she hesitated at the very end when she said *maybe* there could have been something inappropriate.

Dottie Sandusky is the perfect molester’s wife, just as I was!  Dottie is sitting in the chair that I was sitting in many, many years ago when I didn’t know the truth about my husband.  She loves her husband and she believes whatever he tells her.  She believes him because it’s just too painful, too unreal, too out of the realm of her innocent beliefs to think otherwise.

Jerry Sandusky chose the perfect wife! She took in foster kids.  She stood by her husband’s side while he received accolades for all of the wonderful help he gave to underprivileged kids.  She is a God-fearing, loving, faithful wife, but…..   Continue reading

Married to a Pedophile: You Can Help Stop Child Molesters!

 

Thousands of you are viewing this blog, and you’re asking me every day, “How can I help?”  “I want to do something to keep children safe, but I don’t know where to begin.”

Well, I have a place where your voice can definitely make a difference!  Rather than write my normal blog story right now, I feel and urgency to get this information to you today!  Our help is needed and each of us can truly make a difference!

We know that one of the reasons victims don’t speak out is because they’re afraid that when they do there won’t be help for them.  They fear not being believed.  They fear that people will turn a deaf ear.  And, they fear they’ll be made to feel like it was their fault.

Another reason why victims often don’t speak up soon is because they’ve blocked this trauma in the back of their minds as a form of survival.  Imagine being a small child and having someone come into your room in the middle of night, breathing heavy     Continue reading

Married to a Pedophile: Son of a Pedophile Speaks Out

You’ve been hearing from me, the former wife of a pedophile, for several months now. I’ve been telling my story about what it was like being married to a practicing pedophile and not finding out about this “dark side” until after almost forty years of marriage.

I will continue to tell my story and expose more and more of the “red flags” that were present in our marriage from the very day we were married.  This is a difficult thing to talk about — certainly not a pleasurable topic — but the message must get out if we are going to halt these molesters and do all that we can to keep our children safe.

But, what about my children?  They’ve suffered untold grief since finding this out about their dad.  They respected him above anyone else on earth.  He was the father that they were so very proud of — the one that other kids envied.  And, now….he sits in prison for the remainder of his days as a punishment for crimes he committed against many, many children.

My son Jimmy has the very unique position in our family of being the sixth child — making him a middle child.  He also is a minister, but not just any minister.  He is serving at the very same church where his dad served for over thirty years.    Continue reading

Married to a Pedophile: Loving the Lonely

Thank you for continuing to read this blog and to take this seriously.  When I first began sharing my story, I wasn’t exactly sure how this would unfold.  Would people get tired of reading this?  Would people think this was made up drama?  Would people turn away and say this is too much?

Thankfully, you’ve stayed.  And, you’ve shared.  And, you’ve opened up.  Many of you have emailed and said, “This is the first time in my life that I’m telling anyone I was sexually abused as a child.”  That’s powerfully healing!!! And, for that I’m so very thankful.  Something that has triggered anger in me, though, is hearing over and over again from the abused about how difficult it is to find a place in this life where there is a feeling of safety, value, and worth.       Continue reading

Married to a Pedophile: A Message to Survivors of Abuse

Today’s post is going to veer off the path of my usual because I feel the urgency to send out a special message to all those whose lives have been touched in some way by abuse.  Every day I receive many emails from victims of abuse and the same message is relayed to me over and over again.

I feel so dirty.  It must have been my fault.  He told me he did it because I made him.  I feel worthless.  I can’t stand to look at myself in the mirror.  I feel used.   Continue reading