It’s been more than six years now since I found out the man I was married to was a practicing pedophile. Why am I still finding myself suffocating from this? Why is the mental abuse still plaguing me? Why? Why? Why? Why am I still allowing the abuse to affect me?
Sometimes I feel it’s necessary to veer from my normal writing pattern and share some inner glimpses of where my heart is — right at this moment. And, that’s just what I’m going to do today.
A few nights ago, I was having a rough time. I had spoken to three different victims of child sexual abuse on that particular day, and after hearing their stories of pain and suffering, I began thinking about the man I had shared my life with for almost forty years. I began thinking about all of the pain that this one man — a man who called himself a preacher and teacher of the word of God — caused to so many different people. After hearing from these victims of child abuse, my mind began thinking about how horrible it is to have to try to put your life back together again when a pedophile abuses not just your physical body but your mind.
And, the more I thought, the more pained I became and the more angry I got! Continue reading
Thousands of you are viewing this blog, and you’re asking me every day, “How can I help?” “I want to do something to keep children safe, but I don’t know where to begin.”
Well, I have a place where your voice can definitely make a difference! Rather than write my normal blog story right now, I feel and urgency to get this information to you today! Our help is needed and each of us can truly make a difference!
We know that one of the reasons victims don’t speak out is because they’re afraid that when they do there won’t be help for them. They fear not being believed. They fear that people will turn a deaf ear. And, they fear they’ll be made to feel like it was their fault.
Another reason why victims often don’t speak up soon is because they’ve blocked this trauma in the back of their minds as a form of survival. Imagine being a small child and having someone come into your room in the middle of night, breathing heavy Continue reading