Married to a Pedophile: “A Picture is Worth a Thousand Words”

Pictures.  I love to take pictures.  I especially love to take pictures of nature — flowers in bloom, the colors of the changing seasons, and special events pictures.  Rather than journal with words, I often journal the events of my life with photos.

Pedophiles like to take pictures.  Pedophiles love to look at pictures.  Pedophiles study pictures of children.  Little children.  Nude children.  Children taking baths.  Children going to the bathroom.  Children swimming.  Children swinging on swings.  Children playing dress up.  Children just being children.

A pedophile will look at an innocent photo of a child and distort that photo to make it a sexual turn-on.  A pedophile does not see the same thing a pure mind sees.  A pedophile’s mind has been saturated with thoughts of child pornography, unnatural behavior between adults and children, and evil, corrupt thoughts of using the pure innocence of a child for his/her own selfish purposes.  Continue reading

Married to a Pedophile: Peaceful, Kind, Servant of God

The last blog I wrote created quite a stir among you as readers.  “How did you not see the red flags?”  “Why didn’t the church fire him?”  “Why didn’t the children he was abusing tell on him?” “Why did you put up with all of that?”  “Why?”  “Why?”  “Why?”

The answer to that question is because pedophiles are brilliant at masquerading who they really are.  They are two different people.  As John wrote to me in a letter from prison, “I’m sorry you had to find out about my dark side this way.”  He knew he was living as two different people, and the one I fell in love with was the one my heart most readily saw and accepted.  Continue reading