The last blog I wrote created quite a stir among you as readers.  “How did you not see the red flags?”  “Why didn’t the church fire him?”  “Why didn’t the children he was abusing tell on him?” “Why did you put up with all of that?”  “Why?”  “Why?”  “Why?”

The answer to that question is because pedophiles are brilliant at masquerading who they really are.  They are two different people.  As John wrote to me in a letter from prison, “I’m sorry you had to find out about my dark side this way.”  He knew he was living as two different people, and the one I fell in love with was the one my heart most readily saw and accepted.  Continue reading →